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Ben Nadel at Scotch On The Rock (SOTR) 2010 (London) with: John Whish and Kev McCabe
Ben Nadel at Scotch On The Rock (SOTR) 2010 (London) with: John Whish Kev McCabe

Due To My New Situation- I Have To Corrupt My F... Free

I shrugged. "I told you. The drive has been making clicking noises for months."

Every digital file has a header—the first few bytes that tell the operating system how to interpret the rest of the data. For a JPEG, the header might be FF D8 FF . For a PDF, it is %PDF . For a ZIP archive, it is PK . Due to My New Situation- I Have to Corrupt My F...

Due to my new situation, I had laid the groundwork. I had emailed myself a fake "error report" six months prior. I had complained to a friend about "my computer acting weird." I had created a narrative of digital decay. I shrugged

When an SSD controller overheats, it can write data incorrectly. This is a hardware-level corruption. Due to my new situation, I needed the corruption to look organic. A heat-induced write error is indistinguishable from a manufacturing defect. Software corruption is detectable. Hardware destruction is an admission of guilt. But selective hardware fault? That is art. For a JPEG, the header might be FF D8 FF

Corruption is the digital equivalent of arson. It doesn't just hide the building; it melts the steel, scrambles the blueprints, and ensures that even if someone tries to rebuild, they cannot trust the foundations. I needed my files to look like they died of natural causes—a unfortunate bit-flip, a hardware malfunction, an act of digital God. Before I detail the how , I must address the why . Is it ever ethical to intentionally corrupt your own data?

I am not a criminal. Or at least, I wasn’t until last week. But the law is a blunt instrument, and my new situation (a restraining order based on false claims by a business partner, combined with an impending forensic audit) left me with an impossible choice: hand over the keys to my digital life and be destroyed by context, or ensure the data became unreadable, unrecoverable, and inadmissible.

But the files were still on the SSD. So I used a tool called srm (secure remove) with a 35-pass Gutmann overwrite on the encrypted container. Then, to mask the sound of secure wiping (which takes hours), I ran a simultaneous memory stress test to heat up the SSD controller, hoping to induce accidental bit-flips.

I believe in love. I believe in compassion. I believe in human rights. I believe that we can afford to give more of these gifts to the world around us because it costs us nothing to be decent and kind and understanding. And, I want you to know that when you land on this site, you are accepted for who you are, no matter how you identify, what truths you live, or whatever kind of goofy shit makes you feel alive! Rock on with your bad self!
Ben Nadel
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